guts. where are you ?

how did i manage to do it years back ? hunch? instinct? plain guts?
and it saw the beginning of something tat ended in an unexpected way or perhaps, it was just a waiting game. just waiting to break loose.
guts to face my parents. guts to face my siblings. guts to carry on. how did i do it ?

tat was then.

now, i am faced with another gut of which i cant put up at all. most probably, it might not be a success and i will end up embarassing myself. we dont know what other brains are thinking about. we dont know what is being expected. the only thing we can know is through body language but that depends on one's circumstance.

guts, oh guts. where are you ? :(