Sunday, November 25, 2007

feels so great.

over the weekend, it was great coossss its all about foooodddd and family. hehe. well, pple say that however busy u are, the CEO or how many frens, millions of them u have, relationship where u r so involved that u forget abt everything else, FAMILY wont,

1) abandon you
2) totally forget abt u

recently, i think God is trying to tell me,be more filial okayyyy. ok,i shall not talk abt it :)

i am just happy of my family and lifeeee now :)

Saturday, November 24, 2007

seriously nightmare.

the week has been like an emotional turmoil for me. seriously, too many things had happened. surprises, coincidence, confused, fate ? im not sure whats the right word. things began, and things ended just like that. well, its my own decision. we are old enough to know and differentiate between whats good and wats not, right. however, smacked in the middle of the week, well, i met up with galfreensssssss hehe. the last i met them was during my convocation in sept. and hell yeah, seriously im just glad to see those sweet faces again :) (ok, don get me wrong heh)

andddd i had a seriously bad bad nightmare. u know like when u actually dreamt that u were crying and actually when u woke up and found yourself ACTUALLY crying, hmmm mine is along that line somewhere but its not tears actually. i dreamt that i was somewhere with frens and somehow i blacked out. but the thing is, following the blackout, it wasnt me who actually was going thru the next thing im going to tell. there were 2 gals who seemed to drown and had their faces in the water. and there were lots of policemen/divers to save them. THEN, somehow one of the gals was alive and the police were trying hard to save her. then, he got her to breathe again. but then, they have to send her somewhere else along the waters which is quite funny also because they actually put her into an inflatable raft and asked another police to assist and PUSH the raft along to the other side somewhere. but actually, this other police is a badddd one who wanted to KILL her actually. and the scary part is that, it was ME who was in the raft and the police's hands were actually trying to STRANGLE me my grabbing my throat. seriously. i mean seriously it was so scary. he tried so many times to grab my throat but somehow, something was pulling him from the waters. and actually, i wanted to wake up from the nightmare and i found myself NOT able to breathe cos seriously i felt my throat was held so tight, something like choked and i was so scared that i opened up my eyes, not able to swallow my throat and seriously, i was glad that i was alive. it happened this morning, and i seriously donno whats that about. that was such a scary, near-death nightmare.
wat i can analyse from this nightmare is that, one tried hard to save my life and the other wanted me dead. scary right?!

Thursday, November 22, 2007

jason mraz.

remember that cool 6 songs which got weaved together. it happened tat i was youtube-ing jason mraz and hell, not bad after all. i mean im so useless at getting the lyrics right but wat have captured my interest was his expression whilst singing like THE giving it all/dengan-penuh-semangat kind of thing.

annddd plus the fact that hes cute, so yeap, nothing beats tat at all huhu :)

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

"Dare you follow your heart?"

i came upon a title at Popular few days back.
the cupid effect by Dorothy Doomson
and it was listed on the "most popular list". my personal favorite has always been the HOTTT Cecelia Ahern. however this time, dorothy caught my attention esp its title.i mean its so interesting the min i read the pinkish title and hopped over to the back and well, its like the lead character's kinda playin cupid un-intentionally which has got something to do with her aura i guess. i have yet to reach half the book butttt u know, its something like being in the RIGHT place at the RIGHT time. leaving everything back in hometown, being somewhere else according to heart's desire. her style of writing reminded of ME cos she has the style of putting braces at some of her ending lines(like this!). huhu. i like it :)

a potential personal favorite i think.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

low point.

have u like been in the lowest point of your life? i bet.

and i am in it right now. and the only sound i would love to hear is SILENCE, besides the typing sounds + ceiling fan that is. i just want to keep away from anything and everyone. i want to sleep, just alonee quiet.

actually i just got back from an interview. the moment i stepped back home, i didnt utter any words to my parents, and headed back into the room, changed and sat here, yesss here. the last thing i want is any interference, any "how was it?"'s or wateverrr shittttttt u call them.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

better better.

my eyelid has recovered thanks to the $45 worth of medicine! antibiotics pills are like as big as my fingernail, how NOT to recover.

well well well. the past few days had been hmmmmmm GREATTTTTT cos i was out most of the time and that if i were to continue staying at home for the rest of the day, sooner or later, i would have a permanent migraine. theres nothing good on tv, seriously. i mean like most of the time, it will be either my parents with the MIMPI MANIS vcdssss, god knows how many times mum has repeated the show OR little niece will be with her LAzy Town/Spongebob/watever cartoons on the cable. so where is the love mannnn..hehe

no more driving practicals for me, perhaps until end of next month maybe. sigh. miss my instructors already boo hoo. okay, since it has passed and i have completely GOTTEN OVER IT, this was wat happened.

1) 10 points for strike kerb at crank course (Tester asked me, did i feel the strike kerb. i said nooooo, i didnt feel it. and he said yes, i strike the kerb)

circuit got cleared and i went to road

2) 4 points for going up 2nd gear while turning right at traffic light (that was wat i have been doing during practicals. but tester said becos of that gearshift, i cant control with one hand and my turning sometimes too wide)

3) this one, was the mistake i really regretted making. opposite Bukit Gombak Mrt station, there is this bus stop and a traffic light. and so i was behind the bus at the bus stop and my mistake was to overtake it. and so, when i was at the right lane, the lights turned YELLOW andddddd i actually stopped on the crossing blocking the pedestrians. tat cost me 10 points.

tester said actually my mistakes are avoidable.

despite all this, im just glad that he commented that my road driving was good esp the lane change. oh well, the route was an easy one plus ofcos the skills huhu. so yep, hopefully the next one i get will be an easier one too.

Sunday, November 18, 2007

it feels like so long, a wait.

for tat day to come, i feel its just taking so long to come.

its quarter past 11 annddd my swollen bumpy eyelid seems in its recovery stage anddd im so sleepy.


Saturday, November 17, 2007

Pengatin baru nyanyi style rockkkkkkkk beb!

i like this, better! :)

Seribu Tahun - Imran Ajmain (Plucking) - SetanMati

why! why! why!

things went twisted. it didnt go the way i wanted.

and also please, the history one is just one enough for me God.
does my forehead here labelled, "unwanted ones, pls come to me!" ???!!!!


oh God. few hours more to my driving test and wat did i get for a present today?

a swollen right eyelid!


this is not happening!

i want to cryyyyyy!!

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Things I Hate about Everyone..(from

Things I Hate about Everyone..

*ReAd ThIs AnD I'M SuRe MosT Of U HaS ExPeRiEnCeD ThiS....KeKeKe!*

1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the tv remote because they refuse to walk to the tv and change the channel manually.

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is.
Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their asses!

5. When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved!'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.

8. When people say "life is short". What the hell? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does! What can you do that's longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass?


talking about asking for the time, it took me back to around last year when i was in sunway on my way back to hostel from Sunway Pyramid. i was alone at that time and there was this group of 3-4 Middle Eastern guys whom I guessed could be university students or tourists. actually i saw them smiling among themselves from far and so, as they were approaching, one of them tried to be FUNNY. he actually asked me for the time, i checked and shared and when i saw a watch on his wrist, i was like with the WTH face. and he smiled and his friends burst into laughter. i turned around and it happened that one of the gals who happened to CLING onto one of them turned to look at me, and smiled. watever right.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007


and so, we have decided on the colors. i cant practically imagine it SOOOOOOOO i made it up using Photoshop. THE uniform/boria-ness for cousin's wedding next year will be

HAHA. not exactlyyy tat pattern definitely butttt well, plan changes EVERYTIME. but, well we wanted something OUTSTANDING u know, like from one look like, hey candygals are here, hehe.

so cousin cousin, wat do u think? :)
aperlagiii, arab st lahh beb!

an eye-opener.

i bet a lot have seen some gatherings and protesters who got sprayed by water and teargas stuff on tv in other countries, sprawling and scrambling all over the place rallying to protect their rights.

but this event, which happened in our neighboring country seriously has opened alot of eyes. its just so sad that it happened.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007


okay, im shy to confess this buttt hell yeah, i used to watch Hindi movies years back and this song has been my personal favorite and i kept repeating it non-stop the last time like, errr i cant remember. why?

1) Rani Mukherji is HOTTTT.
2) Rani Mukherji dances so well and nice and which ever way she moves, its just nice to look at.
3) Rani Mukherji's voice is husky and sexy, i like.

:) :)

Rani Mukherji - Kali Nagin Ke Jaisi

counting down.

yepyep. countdown starts now. 3 more days to TP.
the last prac didnt go so well. basically becos mood started at a very low point so the rest that followed screwed up.

1) almost hit a speeding cab (1st attempt lane changing)
2) too close to a lorry on my right cos i was trying to inch into the lane (2nd attempt lane changing)
3) stopped ON the zebra crossing (immediate failure)
4) engine stalled twice when parallel parking

u see, all came down to mood/tone. when things are not usually normal and esp when very important event is just around the corner, the slightest non-normal thing will definitely distract my focus. focus is very important here man. and i failed to get to tat point during the last prac. so when i lost focus, came the anger and things didnt work out well at all. how am i gonna go through the test then? :(

Monday, November 12, 2007


okayyy this post is dedicated to 2 gals(i wont mention names, u know who u are).
i am delighted that you guys are seriously (going/currently) beaming with happiness cos spending time with the people you miss most is the most happening + phenomenal thing in this wholeeee wideeee world.

:) :) :)

gimme a week.

over the weekend, it was METRO 20% sales. buzz busy bees and it was packed like crazy anddd u know Singapore, when there are any crazy sales

1) Queues @ cashier counters will be as long as those queues for FREE Today newspapers!

2) Items and NON_ITEMS will be laying around on the floor and NON_FLOOR.

Thats why its only a 3-days affair. imagine how it would be if it were to be a month or more. the staff would have left i think :)

yesterday was the last day of Hari Raya and we managed to visit my aunt-uncle back in Kluang anddddd this is wat i like visiting them. my aunt will cook nice nice food like yesterday's, her Soto Ayam was marvelous + her "sambal cili api" + her fat bouncy chicken huhu. i had 2 large servings and we the family finished the whole pot of soup huhu (sounded like vultures rite).

anddd we went hunting for cousin's wedding stuff for the guests. omg. i didnt know, that we have to buy stuff, alott of stuff for different pple u know. andd i just loveee looking at the many beautiful colors they have, its just so like "Aku pon nak kahwin lah" hehe. anddd i saw this son-mummy-only shopping for similar stuff and my instincts told me tat this guy is gonna get married soonnnnnn cos err well can see from the face and him busy sms-ing on his Blackberry. another family, they were busy asking the pregnant ladyboss for these large packets of errr, at first i was seriously trying to figure out what the hell are they. and they wanted like 300 of these colorful thing which came in pink, blue and yellow. soooo, i stood beside them staring at that stuff they were so kecoh about, still trying to figure out what it was (i was not wearing my specs actually). anddddd, one of them who happened to realise my existence staring at those stuff apparently talked to me. huhu. ahhh, there were actually TOWELS for the orang2 rewang. if you know or have seen people who spends the whole night and day cooking for the wedding reception, they have towels STUFFED at the back pocket jeans(for guys mostly) for an indication that "hey, im one of them who works non-stop for your wedding okay!" hehee. anddd my mind went away for a minute or two, imagining how kecoh and kecoh it is to be in a "kampung" wedding preparation. with all smells of the cows, chickens and goats waiting for their lives to end and ending up in those cooking pots. huhu. i have had a fair share of experience of being in the middle of "kampung" wedding receptions when i was below 10. playing and running around with relatives back then, having crush on them huhu. geez, those are memories. its just that, as i grow older, most i played with before, got married and we lost contact cos my family dont always go back to my parents' hometown. if there is also, im just contented to see those familiar faces i have talked and seen years back. so, if given a week for me to stay in a kampung life, i wouldnt mind :)

Thursday, November 08, 2007

another year addon.

ok. an increase in number. so wats the big deal ? huhu :)

so yes, this is how i looked like in any not-so-good/agitated mood. buruk siot.

andddd, check out all the bulges man! this was at the "garden" huhu.

was bored waiting and when it comes to entertaining kids, i have to even resort to this. watever make them happy lah

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

for the lost time.

it has actually knocked some sense into myself that actually, love can be in all kinds of form. for the period of lost time and the distance, i hope that i am making up for it. love and concern no matter how big or small it is, it does make a difference. the matter to show it or not, plays a big part in growing-up. u know, if you were a kid barely below 7 and living in a family where all hells break loose, where is the love man?

to be someone who is filled with lotsss of loveeee and careeee, it just flow internally. if you have these in yourself, why not share them right? my point is, share the love, show the concern. be it to mother, father, siblings, nephewss, niecess and whoever it is.

especially to the younger ones. who, what and how to develop them into the person you want them to be when they grow up, greatly depends on us.

where is the love.

sidetrack. news have been around about a 50 year old Singaporean woman who died at some posh condo and some not-so-good-details about her having a "toyboy" popped out. how tragic that death is. and the one who got suspected (or charged?) happened to be an Algerian. andddd tat reminded me offfffff my lecturer. huhu. okayy, gals u know whom i am referring to :)

university students? hello. squeeze and sponge off these wealthy&lonely women to earn extra bucks. where are the brains? okay, i know. whats the use of the good looks rite. buttt still. ergh. tat is soooooo disgusting. i mean letting yourself, your body being TOYED(ok, that sounded so wrong cos im imagining Ken being TOYED rite now) wahahaha.

Future university testimonial:
For 4 years, I have been a great toy (pleasure).


Monday, November 05, 2007

humans dont feel satisfied.

when u have curls, u want straightened.
when u have straight, u want those fancy perms/curls.

when i had mine, i was bored with my fringe.

and so.....

and i was called a penyangak becos of this hairstyle.

life is so unfair.

Me : Aper mak cakap? Jeejee mcm penyangak ????????

Mum: Bukan kau. Rambot kau tu nampak mcm penyangak (and she said it will all the expressions she had to give)

Me :(looking at my dad) Ayahhhhhhhh.......

and i got it cleared from my mum ON THE SPOT.

lucky she said its MY hair and not myself.


all hells will break loose i tell u.

Saturday, November 03, 2007



my mum said that i looked like one penyangak.


Friday, November 02, 2007

this is COOL.

6 popular songs got weaved together.


i am just so proud to say that after my poly days, my monash days were incredible.
i was browsing through "zaman monash" pics andddddd yepyep.
those were the days.
its just incredible how people can change others' lives :)
i miss those days! :)
to recap some.....

Selamat Pengantin Baru.SetanMati.

Selamat menjalani hidup berumahtangga bersama bakal isteri, tidak lama lagi.
Semoga berkekalan ke anak cucu dan teros ke akhir hayat.
(okay, i know my malay sux huhu)

"Kahwin kahwin jugak" :)

Thursday, November 01, 2007


the news just came. i didnt expect to be rejected. how can i be rejected? i strongly believe i had the relevant skills. almost everything i had.

and farking worst, i had my practical prior to the news.
and due to this farking news, i had dizzy spell.

my driving was farking RUBBISH.
i almost ran down a motorcylist.
my poles fell TWICE during parallel parking.

all this thanks to the farking farking farking news.

2 days ago, i had all the good comments. and today, this farking, rubbish driving of mine happened.

farking moody.
farking unhappy.
farking farkers.

Seribu Tahun (Cover version)

ooooo. niceeeeeeeeee.

Kerana Cintaku Saerah (Umie Aida, Benjy) uses this song as its soundtrack too.