my thoughts now.

what i am really seeking for right now are :

1) A miracle that something will eventually be mine

2) A sign pleaseee, should or shouldnt I go on doing it since it has been at the back of my mind for quite a while. is it worth it ? will i get the results that i actually want? what if it fails and it will waste my resource and disappoint me in the end?

it is time for a change. for the better.